Are you know?

Are you know?
Sometime you will be agitated,
Not for what just cause the other……

Are you know?
Sometime you will be agitated,
Not for what just cause the lonely……

I felt lonely in the night,
I just can sleep on my bed,
Maybe sometime I sit on my bed and keep to the side of the wall,
Maybe thinking something,
Maybe crying,
Maybe abreact?

Without that all,
What can I do?
And what can you do?

Are you know?
You live with unhappy?
Are you know?
You are so happiness now already?

Ok,
I know……

I'm so happiness now,
I mus be a happiness guy or a kid?

But why I don't feel any happiness?
Isn't it I too much greed?
So I don't feel content?

Can you tell me?
How can I do?
What can I do?

Feel so tired,
But I must be more strong……

Isn't it because I too much flaunt one's superiority?
So I be like that?

A bad guy,
A how terrible guy?

I don't know……
Just want someone to help me……

Hey buddy,
Can you help me?
Waiting for your help……

Blessing you……

等待的感受……

以前，我不会等待，于是渐渐地我开始学习。

等待是什么感受呢？说真的我不清楚也不明白。

起初的等待我觉得其实还好，等待就是等待，站在原地等待，没什么想法没什么感受。

可是直到时间拉长了，我才发现原来等待不是简单地一回事。

等待很难耐，等待很难受。

等待让我精神崩溃，因为不知道等待的他几时回头，所以一直等待，无眠的等待，无止休的等待……

等待中带着的是一丝丝的期待，可是有了期待就有期望、有了期望就有了希望、有了希望就有了失望、有了失望就有了绝望。

它们是连接在一起的，一旦有了期望你就会有了失望再来绝望，期望它可以将你带入天堂有了希望，但它也可以在那一瞬间将你打入地狱让你永远绝望……

或许有时会假装无所谓的说说‘会的、会好的’，那只是自欺欺人的一种说法。

有些习惯是永远改不来的，伤口永远不会好，好了也会留下一个疤、只要揭露就会疼痛的伤疤。

习惯了等待，因为等待久了，即使绝望了，却还是抱着一丝希望，所以永远的等待了，永无止境的等待下去，毫无理由的就因为习惯了……

可是等待得到的是些什么呢？

我不清楚，但是我知道等待是孤独的、是孤单的、是寂寞的。

等待是一个人站在原地等待，身旁没有人相伴，却想着那个不回头的人会回心转意，是一个带着凄凉感觉的希望。

是在期待着什么呢？其实自己心里已经清楚明了的有了答案不是吗？但是为何还在等待？

这种人说他傻吧？可是他又不完全的傻，他知道等待付出的代价是什么、有多大、他知道回馈他的是什么，也设下了最糟糕的回馈。

付出的代价是牺牲了所有的时间、精神、力气等等的，回馈的却是什么都没有的一个黑暗的空间。

空间里有着寂寞有着孤单，还有的就是他一个人。

但是这样的他却还不放弃，即使已经劝自己放弃，心里充满绝望。

但是无可奈何地，这已经是一种习惯，一种可怕的习惯。

习惯是很可怕的一种东西，一旦习惯他可能成为永久。

永久的寂寞、永久的孤单、永久的落寞、永久的绝望……

Find the new dream or catch the past tense dream?

There was a time, I have a dream. A lot of time I asking myself where is my dream? Where did it go? What is my dream? But I still don't have any answer...

What is wrong with me? I have a great dream, isn't it?

But I lose it...

How can I remember my dream? Can I find it again? Can I get it back? I just don't want to lose it...

How can I find it back? Catch it? Bethink? How many ways can I get it back? How many ways can I success to get it back? Please, just give me your answer, I just want an answer, the answer that will help me to get back my dream, the great dream...

Why I can't hold the dream that I have until the last, always always hold it, never let it go. Although I tire, but I will cherish it, because I still have this ability to hold it.

So now, how can I say it too much? Because I lose it already, I don't know I can find it back or not, I don't know it will miss me or not, actually I miss it.

I miss the guy that when she have a dream, I miss her impulse to dream, I miss her zeal to dream, I miss her firm to dream. It would be much miss? I really miss, miss her all of dream...

I wouldn't be always young, I know it...

Because this, so I very anxiety, anxiety how can I find my dream? I want to catch the past tense dream or find a new dream and catch it tightly, never let go?

Blessing me,
Blessing you...

Nothing……

Many time I want to write a post,
Obviously have many feel want to show,
Obviously have many thing want to share,
But when I open a new post,
Everything was gone……

Blessing you……