Say Goodbye To 2013.....

2013 year is gone, we must say goodbye to the past tense own, then say hi to 2014, tell 2014 I must be more good than 2013, my life must be more beautiful more splendid than 2013!

After this year, next year I must go PLKN when January 5 at Perlis.......

Well, I really so scared to this thing, even if in this three month I can be more independent, but really will scared lah!

I want to choose the subject to learn already, but I don't know want to choose what o.......

I have two choice, the first is Illustration then the second is Interior Design, but what is the best to me? What is the more suit to me?

Now I'm so confused, in year 2014 what can I do, then what have I do?

And then what the college I can get in?

The One or Dasein?

If I want to learn Illustration, I will think want to get in The One or Dasein, but if is Interior Design, I must get in The One......

But The One's tuition fee really too much expensive, I really can't bear it, although I ever said that I must go to do part time to pay my tuition fee, but the people told me, the best to me is don't go to do part time, must attend to my study, because the stress to learn this is so big, and it's homework have too many, so we have no time to do part time already......

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Then how can I do? My house my dad have no money already, if I don't do the part time work, Have nobody can pay my tuition fee!

So how can I do now? What can I choose now?

I really don't like to take a choose, this is so difficult to me........

Blessing you...........

FrankWolf, I will miss you, you are always my angel......

The truth verify FrankWolf is died.....

He is a beautiful cosplayer, although he is a boy, but he really so beautiful!

I'm so be not willing to.When I receive the notice that he is die because the bully,so he suicide, I still can't believe, maybe is don't want to believe or don't want to believe the truth, because he is the favorite cosplayer to me.

His cosplay so simple, he haven't see he use too many thing or affected face to play cosplay,but you will no feel boring or depressing. So to me, he is a nice cosplayer, this cosplayer died is a big hit to me, I can't believe that this nice cosplayer can end his live with suicide!And include because of the people that bully he, use their mouse insult he!

I can't believe this, so I find the proof to verify he haven't die again and again, this is the first cosplayer I like, how can he die! I can't accept it!

He is so cute, active beauty, handsome guy, I can't believe he will end his life himself when he is 20 years old!

The proof let me believe that he haven't die, then I disappointment again and again. The proof with powerful to verify he haven't die too less, the proof verify he was die too more....

So, I accept this now.....

I think, maybe he die suicide is a good thing, because he extrication already, he will no hear the insult and the criticism, he relax already, he can do himself already......

Maybe he really is a girl, but he become a boy....

The next world, maybe he will become a girl and do a best cosplayer, many people accept she, she is the best cosplayer in the world.

FrankWolf, if you really do the cosplayer, please you this name again, maybe I still remember then I become your fan again!

You always is my favorite cosplayer!I'm your fan forever!

I will miss you forever, you can rest in peace now,blessing you.....

Cry? For What?

Just know I hear a song"我们没有在一起"/"We haven't together", this song maybe is for a lovers, but don't know why, I think of my friend, a friend of long long ago.

This son'g lyrics have some word some sentence let me think of my friend......

She is a very nice guy,I think maybe.But this is the thing  of pass tense. Many time she do the wrong thing, I must correct she,let she do a true thing.

In my heart, the money maybe is the first place, then family,and the next is my friend. So that time I think, I can't let this friend do the wrong step, walk the wrong road. So I correct she a time after time, even though she still do the wrong step and many thing I still can't understand, but I don't give up, I correct she over and over. I told me: She is my friend I must help her until I don't have ability!

But.......I give up already.

Because I discover, How long the time I do her friend, and I still can't understand she, I still can't correct she, I don't have the ability to correct she already.

Not don't want to be friend with her already, just I don't know how to face she.

Now, she is a stranger to me. I'm not a initiative guy. When I face to stranger, I just feel tired, because I must take a smile face to them, but the smile let me feeling tired.

In the time I encounter she, I just feel strangeness, I can't feel the kind on her lois. I just feel tired.I still remember in the time we must friend, even though we get together every day, but we have not don't have topic day, but after long time we don't live together, we don't have topic already.

We, become a stranger already......

This song let me bethink your smile when the primary school we live together, your stupid.

But have a sentence I feel so intention "Time is gone, who still wait?"

Just only you understand my dream not so big, I know you can't take along me turn back to before, you say you are so good now just like to bethink the long memory.

I cry in my memory, I know I must forget all of this, because we grow up already, we can't live in memory.....

Cry for this maybe look so stupid.Don't say I'm a stronger one, I'm not the stronger one.

So, how to say goodbye to my memory? The memory of a bad and good to me.

Blessing you......

Because our live can't without money……

我不想把自己搞得太悲哀，但是貌似不悲就不是我？

哈哈~这是自虐么？

二舅啊，加油吧！或许人生很难过，很多不幸的事发生在身上，但是你还是得面对得努力克服啊！

没办法，这个世界有谁从来都没遇过不幸的事？你说对不对？

谁叫我们的运气不好，家里似乎都遇到困难，爸遇到那些事，你又遇到这些事……

今年我们的运气不好啦，不过可能明年、后年、大后年我们会越来越好？

钱钱钱，这年头说的都是钱，什么人情味？朋友情？亲情？

拜托！别来这套，我已经不相信这些东西百分之百会在自己遇到困难的时候一定回来帮忙！

人不为己天诛地灭，更何况现在的世界这么现实又这么没人情味，再好的人都会被现实的世界改变，有谁会说“这个世界没改变过我！”？

没有吧？或许以前的我会信誓旦旦的说“别开玩笑了！怎么可能？我就是我！”，但是现在我只能向这个现实的世界屈服……

再有骨气的人都会向钱而低头，钱有一种魔力，把我们召唤到它的身边陪伴它一生。它很丑陋又有毒，就如同吸毒，一旦开始接触，我们就很难戒去。

身边不无一人不天天把钱挂在嘴上，就连父母都会告诉我们：“孩子，读好书才会有前途才能赚更多的钱明白吗？”。

好吧，我低头了、我屈服了、我承认……

别告诉我你不用钱，你不需要它，从我们出生的那一刻起我们就已经成钱奴。

这个世界已经腐败，全世界、统一的……

为了钱，我们腐败；为了钱，我们成奴。

究竟是我们在掌控钱，还是钱掌控我们呢？

我很好奇，但是我不需要去猜测、不需要去明白了解……

你问我为什么？

答案是：Because our live can't without money……

I have a new blog to do creative work~

http://world-of-weon.blogspot.com/
This is the new blog of my~
I updated my creative lyrics, songs and poem in this blog~
Of course include my favorite novels~

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Waiting for your comments~
Waiting for your follow~

I will always use this blog also~
But now I have to standby my SPM~
So I can't always updated sorry ya~

So……
Now I want to sleep already~
Night night~
Have a nice dream~

Blessing you~

Are you know?

Are you know?
Sometime you will be agitated,
Not for what just cause the other……

Are you know?
Sometime you will be agitated,
Not for what just cause the lonely……

I felt lonely in the night,
I just can sleep on my bed,
Maybe sometime I sit on my bed and keep to the side of the wall,
Maybe thinking something,
Maybe crying,
Maybe abreact?

Without that all,
What can I do?
And what can you do?

Are you know?
You live with unhappy?
Are you know?
You are so happiness now already?

Ok,
I know……

I'm so happiness now,
I mus be a happiness guy or a kid?

But why I don't feel any happiness?
Isn't it I too much greed?
So I don't feel content?

Can you tell me?
How can I do?
What can I do?

Feel so tired,
But I must be more strong……

Isn't it because I too much flaunt one's superiority?
So I be like that?

A bad guy,
A how terrible guy?

I don't know……
Just want someone to help me……

Hey buddy,
Can you help me?
Waiting for your help……

Blessing you……

等待的感受……

以前，我不会等待，于是渐渐地我开始学习。

等待是什么感受呢？说真的我不清楚也不明白。

起初的等待我觉得其实还好，等待就是等待，站在原地等待，没什么想法没什么感受。

可是直到时间拉长了，我才发现原来等待不是简单地一回事。

等待很难耐，等待很难受。

等待让我精神崩溃，因为不知道等待的他几时回头，所以一直等待，无眠的等待，无止休的等待……

等待中带着的是一丝丝的期待，可是有了期待就有期望、有了期望就有了希望、有了希望就有了失望、有了失望就有了绝望。

它们是连接在一起的，一旦有了期望你就会有了失望再来绝望，期望它可以将你带入天堂有了希望，但它也可以在那一瞬间将你打入地狱让你永远绝望……

或许有时会假装无所谓的说说‘会的、会好的’，那只是自欺欺人的一种说法。

有些习惯是永远改不来的，伤口永远不会好，好了也会留下一个疤、只要揭露就会疼痛的伤疤。

习惯了等待，因为等待久了，即使绝望了，却还是抱着一丝希望，所以永远的等待了，永无止境的等待下去，毫无理由的就因为习惯了……

可是等待得到的是些什么呢？

我不清楚，但是我知道等待是孤独的、是孤单的、是寂寞的。

等待是一个人站在原地等待，身旁没有人相伴，却想着那个不回头的人会回心转意，是一个带着凄凉感觉的希望。

是在期待着什么呢？其实自己心里已经清楚明了的有了答案不是吗？但是为何还在等待？

这种人说他傻吧？可是他又不完全的傻，他知道等待付出的代价是什么、有多大、他知道回馈他的是什么，也设下了最糟糕的回馈。

付出的代价是牺牲了所有的时间、精神、力气等等的，回馈的却是什么都没有的一个黑暗的空间。

空间里有着寂寞有着孤单，还有的就是他一个人。

但是这样的他却还不放弃，即使已经劝自己放弃，心里充满绝望。

但是无可奈何地，这已经是一种习惯，一种可怕的习惯。

习惯是很可怕的一种东西，一旦习惯他可能成为永久。

永久的寂寞、永久的孤单、永久的落寞、永久的绝望……

Find the new dream or catch the past tense dream?

There was a time, I have a dream. A lot of time I asking myself where is my dream? Where did it go? What is my dream? But I still don't have any answer...

What is wrong with me? I have a great dream, isn't it?

But I lose it...

How can I remember my dream? Can I find it again? Can I get it back? I just don't want to lose it...

How can I find it back? Catch it? Bethink? How many ways can I get it back? How many ways can I success to get it back? Please, just give me your answer, I just want an answer, the answer that will help me to get back my dream, the great dream...

Why I can't hold the dream that I have until the last, always always hold it, never let it go. Although I tire, but I will cherish it, because I still have this ability to hold it.

So now, how can I say it too much? Because I lose it already, I don't know I can find it back or not, I don't know it will miss me or not, actually I miss it.

I miss the guy that when she have a dream, I miss her impulse to dream, I miss her zeal to dream, I miss her firm to dream. It would be much miss? I really miss, miss her all of dream...

I wouldn't be always young, I know it...

Because this, so I very anxiety, anxiety how can I find my dream? I want to catch the past tense dream or find a new dream and catch it tightly, never let go?

Blessing me,
Blessing you...

Nothing……

Many time I want to write a post,
Obviously have many feel want to show,
Obviously have many thing want to share,
But when I open a new post,
Everything was gone……

Blessing you……

Pek Cek! Emo again!

I very very very hate emo!
Everytime when I emo,
I very pek cek you know!

But in this year,
So many emo!
Or maybe more early?
Like yesteryear?

Oh my god!
Please help me lah!
I don't want pek cek again liao!

Why I have many emotion har?
Just hush to study until SPM finish can't?
Let my brain stop to think!
Let my thoughts stop to run!

Stop! Stop!Stop!!!

How can you stop it?
How can I do?

'Wow!
Very nice~
Clever clever brain~'

Want me praise you like this?
Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pek cek lah!

Can you let my brain take a rest or not?!

Stop! Stop! Stop!!!
You let me want to say blessing also can't!

Ishhh!!!
Blessing lah! Blessing lah!
Want to sleep already!
Feel very pek cek but also weary!

Ishhhh!!!
Pek cek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

哭泣……

有种哭泣

叫做抽泣

有种哭泣

叫做低泣

不是不哭

只是忘了怎么哭

想哭

但却怎么都无法落泪

是眼泪不想滑落

还是忘了怎么哭

是忘了怎么哭

但却很想大声嚎哭

这么痛苦的感受

心里正闷着

闷着的痛苦

无法诉说清楚

心里的辛苦

只有自己心里清楚

是该放开

是该释怀

但是为什么却更加难受

是眼泪忘了它原本的目的

所以才让我们受罪

是眼泪忘了它的任务

所以我们不再哭泣

看似坚强

却只有自己知道

已经接近崩溃

已经感到崩溃

直到崩溃

才能释怀

Chinese lyrics~

多少年前的事

我不停的回想

此刻的我已经老得没办法移动

我依旧握着你那满怀笑容的照片

甜美的笑容  我深刻印在脑海

只是已经模糊  是否你也这样

曾经的笑容再甜美

也有一天变得无力

是不是该我维持这一切

是不是该我牺牲这一切

消失的无影无踪

这是你的回答

你不需要任何的同情

但却误会了我的痴情

再怎么艳美  也会凋谢

你离去了  却维持了这一切

是你的自私  照旧了这一切

是你的无情  这一切保持不变

是你的牺牲 我记住了这一切

As long as I want to do……

Some of the thing that I must to trust oneself,
But I don't have self-confident,
So I timidity......

Sometime I will think,
Isn't it as long as I want to do,
I will come through?

Maybe incapable,
Maybe be able to......

However,
I lose too more time.
However,
I don't have too more courage to fight......

I want to pick up my brave again,
But I afraid to be hurt again.

I must trust myself,
As long as I want to do,
I will success......

I must come through!

Blessing you also me......

原来一切都变得这么陌生……

轻轻的一句你好都没有，
你偷偷瞄向我这里的眼神是想诉说些什么？
有什么是你想对我说的吗？

是不是长大了，
大家就变得陌生？

是因为时间吗？
不管食物的保存期有多久始终会变质，
就连我们之间的感情也是……

有点依依不舍的再见呢？
会闪着泪光的道别呢？
我们怎么了呢？

一句话都没有，
在这漫长的一天里，
只有一个想诉说些什么的眼神，
之后我们再也没有任何交集……

小时候的感情呢？
变成这空气里没用的二氧化碳了吗？

好多个问号呆在我的心里，
但是要从哪里开始问起？

所以我选择了闭起嘴巴，
继续扮演着我们陌生人的角色。

你我的微笑都藏着尴尬，
是不是这样呢？
其实我并不清楚。

是陌生了吗？
是陌生了吧？
就陌生了吧？

是这样继续放任下去吗？
我们继续保持着沉默，
继续玩着角色扮演。

我不知道……

Blessing you……

Thank to the old me……

Look back to the previous diary,
I saw that have a sentence,
The sentence that I wrote.

"I don't want you to give up!
Don't let you to give up!
I hope that my hope not just a hope,
It will realize!"

I suddenly feel that the old me so brave,
I brave to explain myself to complete something,
I give myself acceptance,
I warned myself to do what I want.

Why previous of my have this nerve to explain myself?
I feel very strange……

But now……
Why I'm so timid already?
Where is my bravery?
Why I become a coward?

But now,
I feel energetic again after I see that sentence I wrote~

I will be more bravely to attempt,
Attempt something I want to complete,
Attempt something that I want to do,
And try my best!

The old me,
You are so brave!

I want to say thank to you!

Thank to your brave,
Thank to your direct,
Thank to your all,
Thank for your all……

Blessing you……

Powerless……

My teacher miscarry,
I know that my friend was so sad on this matter.

She is her friend,
Her best friend,
Every thing like secret they also will told counterpart.

Now my friend come to find me,
And say that she was so sad,
And now she can't sleep.

But what can I do to she or her?
This matter was happen,
I can't do anything.

I want to comfort my friend,
But my phone don't have money to reply blak!

Sorry……
I say this to you my friend,
I'm powerless……

And now I just can blessing you……

Blessing you……

我就是这样一个我！

我是一个很普通很普通的一个平凡的人，

我没有强大到全部人都要喜欢我，

也没有伟大到要全部人讨厌我。

我不漂亮，

不需要全部人围着我称赞我。

当然！

我也不帅气，

虽然我变态到想要自己有多么的帅气……

我不可爱，

因为很多人都说可怜没人爱。

我很幸福，

因为我四肢健全家人安康。

我很难过，

因为有几个我好尊敬好喜欢的长辈都已经离我而去了。

我高兴时会笑，

我伤心时不会表示，

因为那代表着懦弱。

我很坚强！

尽管那只是个掩饰。

我会哭，

不过只会偷偷的躲在房间里哭。

我没有人见人爱，

但会尽力不让人厌恶。

我的情绪很负面，

但是偶尔会想很开。

我不是一个完美的人，

当然！

全部人都不是。

我喜欢画画，

尽管我的技术没很强。

我很会弹钢琴，

因为我不在别人面前出丑，
所以他们都不知道我的钢琴有多么的烂！

我很死要面子，

虽然有时候我的脸皮还是很厚。

我很相信梦想，

尽管梦只能想。

我相信梦想会有实现的一天，

但是我也知道十个里面只有一个人成功。

我很现实，

在金钱观念方面就能看得出来。

我很讲义气，

虽然很多时候我都临阵逃开。

我很讨厌做作，

所以一旦看到就会开枪就骂。

我会三思而后行，

但是我很多时候都很天才的先行了才三思。

我很讨人厌，

因为有些时候你越让我做我越偏不要做。

我的想法很古怪，

但是我都把它定位这只是普通的思考结果。

我很自以为是，

每次都认为这个想法行得通，

结果到头来都自讨苦吃。

我不是一个成熟的人，

也不明白那些一直称赞我很成熟的人有何动意。

我想法不完全错误，

因为我还是一个有用脑的人。

我的作文写得很好，

尽管那个写得不好的都比我高分。

我很骄傲，

但我只会开玩笑的摆出姿势。

我很情绪化，

那是坐我后面旁边的那位告诉我的。

我很不了解我自己，

尽管这篇文章写了这么长。

我很想做回一个真实的自我，

但是我知道那已成为了不可能。

我很厉害说大话，

可是有时候我还是会很有人性的说出一番有着人生哲理的话。

我不认为自己很值得他人信任，

因为我连自己对自己也无法信任。

我很会守别人的秘密，

因为我都很强大的把它们通通忘记。

我很意气用事，

虽然有时候还是会很不可思议思考行事。

我可以说自己不勇敢，

但是在他人面前我会摆出一副勇敢的样子。

我不需要任何人来了解我，

因为我自己也不了解自己。

我不需要任何人记得我，

因为我没有那么有纪念价值。

我很珍惜每段友情，

因为我知道一旦出现裂痕就很难缝补。

我曾经认为说出一些事情就能挽回某些事情，

但是到头来都是无补于事。

我不需要任何人的同情，

因为我没有让人同情的需要。

我废话说的很多，

所以我到这里就停止了。

我再废话多一句，

我就是这样一个你爽我就爽不爽就不爽的我！

Blessing you……