A lot of annoyance........

Now I have many annoyance.......

Have people say when the human grow up, the annoyance will increase, I believe this, because my annoyance haven't stop and be more and more.

But I heard people say that they lost their dream and confused what the life they want and how to walk when their grow up, I laugh them and scold them: How you can don't know what is your dream?! When you got the dream you must continue realize it! How you can give up?

Like a fool right? I haven't think for their feeling because I haven't feel this feeling......

If previously, when you asking me what is your dream? Can you continue to realize it? To the past of me, I will tell you My dream is be a illustrator! But now, I will tell you I don't make sure what dream is mine, what thing I want.......

Because of money, I can't go study now, I can't realize my dream now. I not so happy now, I did the foolish thing......

Yup! I did the foolish thing except mind, I try to commit suicide.......

What a foolish moving?

But maybe now I have to give up to my dream and lower one's head to reality.

Next step I have to do is accept the work of nursery of Tzu Chi, do the teacher of kid then get the credential of Grade 8.

My dream...... Maybe I have to say bye bye?

Haha...... In order to dream and I leave tears for the sake of what?

If have the chance, I will hold you again.

My dream, if you can wait, please stay and wait for me......

该怎决定这个决定……

'Be Brave'……

我昨天打算勇敢了，没想到却还是胆怯又成了胆小鬼，我又打算放弃了。应该不是打算，是真的要放弃了……

为什么你就是这样？好像在意又好像不在意，要又不要你知道很讨人厌的吗？

我原本打算我回来的时候如果看到你还是没有行动我就放弃了，哪里知道当天晚上你又来找我，聊天的内容很融洽，又带点暧昧我才想着是不是我可以尝试把握，哪里知道隔天你又变冷淡了……

我找你聊天想和你说说话，哪里知道却得不到你的回应。

说出去的话我收不回，我尝试把握了，你就不能拒绝得干脆点？又或者表示得明显点？我毕竟也是女的好不好？

对！我曾经拒绝过你，不过我不是说了吗？那是我很怕受伤并且我还在读书我是真的不想碰这些东西，即使我真的喜欢你，而且还是在你还没告白还没喜欢我之前就喜欢你了，但是我还是不敢碰触！

现在我尝试了，却发现你已经对我没有感觉了，当我想放弃，你又问起了原因似乎还在乎，所以我又不放了，正当我又想努力，你又变的冷淡……

忽冷忽热是我的强项，不过我发现你比我的这个强项还强项，我是不是该问清楚你对我的感觉，完全表示出我对你的感觉？

可是我怕你嫌我烦……

真的很怕，虽然想知道你的答案，也在心底里清楚你的答案，但是我还是会怕，即使是我想放弃以后也不会在跟你有瓜葛，但是还是怕你对我的印象变差。

可是我真的很想亲耳听你说出答案，好让我可以把心一横放弃。

还是我直接放弃好了？直接无视……可是会很难受……我知道……

我又不能删了他，因为之前删了他，他又加回我了……

我要怎样删多一次？心痛了一次又一次、我忍了又忍、很累很痛……

你是个playboy是吧？那我就不该太认真，把你的话听进三分七分玩笑，那就好，或许我也该开始忽冷忽热了，不该太热，我也不适合太热吧……

所以……忘了吧……是吧？自己也不会太难受……

Be Brave!

Turn back from PLKN loh~~

No need to wake up early, and no need to take a colder bath, no need kawad, so relax hor~

But actually is tomorrow I still want to wake up early……

I just want to sleep lately, wake up lately……

Erm……Hi, I want to find you to talk leh, but what is the cause that I go to find he to chat?

Ok~ I can say Happy New Year with you and then start to talk with you, but I don't have the brave to do like that oh……

And I'm a girl ok? Although now is the new generation, but I still feel shy to be the first find you to talk.

Hei! You can't find me automatic meh? Although you find me automatic yesterday already lah! And now I must be the first to find you to chat……

Aiyah! So blur loh!

Ok! Now go to find you to chat!

Go! Go! Go!!!

Say Goodbye To 2013.....

2013 year is gone, we must say goodbye to the past tense own, then say hi to 2014, tell 2014 I must be more good than 2013, my life must be more beautiful more splendid than 2013!

After this year, next year I must go PLKN when January 5 at Perlis.......

Well, I really so scared to this thing, even if in this three month I can be more independent, but really will scared lah!

I want to choose the subject to learn already, but I don't know want to choose what o.......

I have two choice, the first is Illustration then the second is Interior Design, but what is the best to me? What is the more suit to me?

Now I'm so confused, in year 2014 what can I do, then what have I do?

And then what the college I can get in?

The One or Dasein?

If I want to learn Illustration, I will think want to get in The One or Dasein, but if is Interior Design, I must get in The One......

But The One's tuition fee really too much expensive, I really can't bear it, although I ever said that I must go to do part time to pay my tuition fee, but the people told me, the best to me is don't go to do part time, must attend to my study, because the stress to learn this is so big, and it's homework have too many, so we have no time to do part time already......

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Then how can I do? My house my dad have no money already, if I don't do the part time work, Have nobody can pay my tuition fee!

So how can I do now? What can I choose now?

I really don't like to take a choose, this is so difficult to me........

Blessing you...........

FrankWolf, I will miss you, you are always my angel......

The truth verify FrankWolf is died.....

He is a beautiful cosplayer, although he is a boy, but he really so beautiful!

I'm so be not willing to.When I receive the notice that he is die because the bully,so he suicide, I still can't believe, maybe is don't want to believe or don't want to believe the truth, because he is the favorite cosplayer to me.

His cosplay so simple, he haven't see he use too many thing or affected face to play cosplay,but you will no feel boring or depressing. So to me, he is a nice cosplayer, this cosplayer died is a big hit to me, I can't believe that this nice cosplayer can end his live with suicide!And include because of the people that bully he, use their mouse insult he!

I can't believe this, so I find the proof to verify he haven't die again and again, this is the first cosplayer I like, how can he die! I can't accept it!

He is so cute, active beauty, handsome guy, I can't believe he will end his life himself when he is 20 years old!

The proof let me believe that he haven't die, then I disappointment again and again. The proof with powerful to verify he haven't die too less, the proof verify he was die too more....

So, I accept this now.....

I think, maybe he die suicide is a good thing, because he extrication already, he will no hear the insult and the criticism, he relax already, he can do himself already......

Maybe he really is a girl, but he become a boy....

The next world, maybe he will become a girl and do a best cosplayer, many people accept she, she is the best cosplayer in the world.

FrankWolf, if you really do the cosplayer, please you this name again, maybe I still remember then I become your fan again!

You always is my favorite cosplayer!I'm your fan forever!

I will miss you forever, you can rest in peace now,blessing you.....

Cry? For What?

Just know I hear a song"我们没有在一起"/"We haven't together", this song maybe is for a lovers, but don't know why, I think of my friend, a friend of long long ago.

This son'g lyrics have some word some sentence let me think of my friend......

She is a very nice guy,I think maybe.But this is the thing  of pass tense. Many time she do the wrong thing, I must correct she,let she do a true thing.

In my heart, the money maybe is the first place, then family,and the next is my friend. So that time I think, I can't let this friend do the wrong step, walk the wrong road. So I correct she a time after time, even though she still do the wrong step and many thing I still can't understand, but I don't give up, I correct she over and over. I told me: She is my friend I must help her until I don't have ability!

But.......I give up already.

Because I discover, How long the time I do her friend, and I still can't understand she, I still can't correct she, I don't have the ability to correct she already.

Not don't want to be friend with her already, just I don't know how to face she.

Now, she is a stranger to me. I'm not a initiative guy. When I face to stranger, I just feel tired, because I must take a smile face to them, but the smile let me feeling tired.

In the time I encounter she, I just feel strangeness, I can't feel the kind on her lois. I just feel tired.I still remember in the time we must friend, even though we get together every day, but we have not don't have topic day, but after long time we don't live together, we don't have topic already.

We, become a stranger already......

This song let me bethink your smile when the primary school we live together, your stupid.

But have a sentence I feel so intention "Time is gone, who still wait?"

Just only you understand my dream not so big, I know you can't take along me turn back to before, you say you are so good now just like to bethink the long memory.

I cry in my memory, I know I must forget all of this, because we grow up already, we can't live in memory.....

Cry for this maybe look so stupid.Don't say I'm a stronger one, I'm not the stronger one.

So, how to say goodbye to my memory? The memory of a bad and good to me.

Blessing you......

Because our live can't without money……

我不想把自己搞得太悲哀，但是貌似不悲就不是我？

哈哈~这是自虐么？

二舅啊，加油吧！或许人生很难过，很多不幸的事发生在身上，但是你还是得面对得努力克服啊！

没办法，这个世界有谁从来都没遇过不幸的事？你说对不对？

谁叫我们的运气不好，家里似乎都遇到困难，爸遇到那些事，你又遇到这些事……

今年我们的运气不好啦，不过可能明年、后年、大后年我们会越来越好？

钱钱钱，这年头说的都是钱，什么人情味？朋友情？亲情？

拜托！别来这套，我已经不相信这些东西百分之百会在自己遇到困难的时候一定回来帮忙！

人不为己天诛地灭，更何况现在的世界这么现实又这么没人情味，再好的人都会被现实的世界改变，有谁会说“这个世界没改变过我！”？

没有吧？或许以前的我会信誓旦旦的说“别开玩笑了！怎么可能？我就是我！”，但是现在我只能向这个现实的世界屈服……

再有骨气的人都会向钱而低头，钱有一种魔力，把我们召唤到它的身边陪伴它一生。它很丑陋又有毒，就如同吸毒，一旦开始接触，我们就很难戒去。

身边不无一人不天天把钱挂在嘴上，就连父母都会告诉我们：“孩子，读好书才会有前途才能赚更多的钱明白吗？”。

好吧，我低头了、我屈服了、我承认……

别告诉我你不用钱，你不需要它，从我们出生的那一刻起我们就已经成钱奴。

这个世界已经腐败，全世界、统一的……

为了钱，我们腐败；为了钱，我们成奴。

究竟是我们在掌控钱，还是钱掌控我们呢？

我很好奇，但是我不需要去猜测、不需要去明白了解……

你问我为什么？

答案是：Because our live can't without money……