Say Goodbye To 2013.....

2013 year is gone, we must say goodbye to the past tense own, then say hi to 2014, tell 2014 I must be more good than 2013, my life must be more beautiful more splendid than 2013!

After this year, next year I must go PLKN when January 5 at Perlis.......

Well, I really so scared to this thing, even if in this three month I can be more independent, but really will scared lah!

I want to choose the subject to learn already, but I don't know want to choose what o.......

I have two choice, the first is Illustration then the second is Interior Design, but what is the best to me? What is the more suit to me?

Now I'm so confused, in year 2014 what can I do, then what have I do?

And then what the college I can get in?

The One or Dasein?

If I want to learn Illustration, I will think want to get in The One or Dasein, but if is Interior Design, I must get in The One......

But The One's tuition fee really too much expensive, I really can't bear it, although I ever said that I must go to do part time to pay my tuition fee, but the people told me, the best to me is don't go to do part time, must attend to my study, because the stress to learn this is so big, and it's homework have too many, so we have no time to do part time already......

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Then how can I do? My house my dad have no money already, if I don't do the part time work, Have nobody can pay my tuition fee!

So how can I do now? What can I choose now?

I really don't like to take a choose, this is so difficult to me........

Blessing you...........

FrankWolf, I will miss you, you are always my angel......

The truth verify FrankWolf is died.....

He is a beautiful cosplayer, although he is a boy, but he really so beautiful!

I'm so be not willing to.When I receive the notice that he is die because the bully,so he suicide, I still can't believe, maybe is don't want to believe or don't want to believe the truth, because he is the favorite cosplayer to me.

His cosplay so simple, he haven't see he use too many thing or affected face to play cosplay,but you will no feel boring or depressing. So to me, he is a nice cosplayer, this cosplayer died is a big hit to me, I can't believe that this nice cosplayer can end his live with suicide!And include because of the people that bully he, use their mouse insult he!

I can't believe this, so I find the proof to verify he haven't die again and again, this is the first cosplayer I like, how can he die! I can't accept it!

He is so cute, active beauty, handsome guy, I can't believe he will end his life himself when he is 20 years old!

The proof let me believe that he haven't die, then I disappointment again and again. The proof with powerful to verify he haven't die too less, the proof verify he was die too more....

So, I accept this now.....

I think, maybe he die suicide is a good thing, because he extrication already, he will no hear the insult and the criticism, he relax already, he can do himself already......

Maybe he really is a girl, but he become a boy....

The next world, maybe he will become a girl and do a best cosplayer, many people accept she, she is the best cosplayer in the world.

FrankWolf, if you really do the cosplayer, please you this name again, maybe I still remember then I become your fan again!

You always is my favorite cosplayer!I'm your fan forever!

I will miss you forever, you can rest in peace now,blessing you.....

Cry? For What?

Just know I hear a song"我们没有在一起"/"We haven't together", this song maybe is for a lovers, but don't know why, I think of my friend, a friend of long long ago.

This son'g lyrics have some word some sentence let me think of my friend......

She is a very nice guy,I think maybe.But this is the thing  of pass tense. Many time she do the wrong thing, I must correct she,let she do a true thing.

In my heart, the money maybe is the first place, then family,and the next is my friend. So that time I think, I can't let this friend do the wrong step, walk the wrong road. So I correct she a time after time, even though she still do the wrong step and many thing I still can't understand, but I don't give up, I correct she over and over. I told me: She is my friend I must help her until I don't have ability!

But.......I give up already.

Because I discover, How long the time I do her friend, and I still can't understand she, I still can't correct she, I don't have the ability to correct she already.

Not don't want to be friend with her already, just I don't know how to face she.

Now, she is a stranger to me. I'm not a initiative guy. When I face to stranger, I just feel tired, because I must take a smile face to them, but the smile let me feeling tired.

In the time I encounter she, I just feel strangeness, I can't feel the kind on her lois. I just feel tired.I still remember in the time we must friend, even though we get together every day, but we have not don't have topic day, but after long time we don't live together, we don't have topic already.

We, become a stranger already......

This song let me bethink your smile when the primary school we live together, your stupid.

But have a sentence I feel so intention "Time is gone, who still wait?"

Just only you understand my dream not so big, I know you can't take along me turn back to before, you say you are so good now just like to bethink the long memory.

I cry in my memory, I know I must forget all of this, because we grow up already, we can't live in memory.....

Cry for this maybe look so stupid.Don't say I'm a stronger one, I'm not the stronger one.

So, how to say goodbye to my memory? The memory of a bad and good to me.

Blessing you......

Because our live can't without money……

我不想把自己搞得太悲哀，但是貌似不悲就不是我？

哈哈~这是自虐么？

二舅啊，加油吧！或许人生很难过，很多不幸的事发生在身上，但是你还是得面对得努力克服啊！

没办法，这个世界有谁从来都没遇过不幸的事？你说对不对？

谁叫我们的运气不好，家里似乎都遇到困难，爸遇到那些事，你又遇到这些事……

今年我们的运气不好啦，不过可能明年、后年、大后年我们会越来越好？

钱钱钱，这年头说的都是钱，什么人情味？朋友情？亲情？

拜托！别来这套，我已经不相信这些东西百分之百会在自己遇到困难的时候一定回来帮忙！

人不为己天诛地灭，更何况现在的世界这么现实又这么没人情味，再好的人都会被现实的世界改变，有谁会说“这个世界没改变过我！”？

没有吧？或许以前的我会信誓旦旦的说“别开玩笑了！怎么可能？我就是我！”，但是现在我只能向这个现实的世界屈服……

再有骨气的人都会向钱而低头，钱有一种魔力，把我们召唤到它的身边陪伴它一生。它很丑陋又有毒，就如同吸毒，一旦开始接触，我们就很难戒去。

身边不无一人不天天把钱挂在嘴上，就连父母都会告诉我们：“孩子，读好书才会有前途才能赚更多的钱明白吗？”。

好吧，我低头了、我屈服了、我承认……

别告诉我你不用钱，你不需要它，从我们出生的那一刻起我们就已经成钱奴。

这个世界已经腐败，全世界、统一的……

为了钱，我们腐败；为了钱，我们成奴。

究竟是我们在掌控钱，还是钱掌控我们呢？

我很好奇，但是我不需要去猜测、不需要去明白了解……

你问我为什么？

答案是：Because our live can't without money……

I have a new blog to do creative work~

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This is the new blog of my~
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Of course include my favorite novels~

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But now I have to standby my SPM~
So I can't always updated sorry ya~

So……
Now I want to sleep already~
Night night~
Have a nice dream~

Blessing you~

Are you know?

Are you know?
Sometime you will be agitated,
Not for what just cause the other……

Are you know?
Sometime you will be agitated,
Not for what just cause the lonely……

I felt lonely in the night,
I just can sleep on my bed,
Maybe sometime I sit on my bed and keep to the side of the wall,
Maybe thinking something,
Maybe crying,
Maybe abreact?

Without that all,
What can I do?
And what can you do?

Are you know?
You live with unhappy?
Are you know?
You are so happiness now already?

Ok,
I know……

I'm so happiness now,
I mus be a happiness guy or a kid?

But why I don't feel any happiness?
Isn't it I too much greed?
So I don't feel content?

Can you tell me?
How can I do?
What can I do?

Feel so tired,
But I must be more strong……

Isn't it because I too much flaunt one's superiority?
So I be like that?

A bad guy,
A how terrible guy?

I don't know……
Just want someone to help me……

Hey buddy,
Can you help me?
Waiting for your help……

Blessing you……

等待的感受……

以前，我不会等待，于是渐渐地我开始学习。

等待是什么感受呢？说真的我不清楚也不明白。

起初的等待我觉得其实还好，等待就是等待，站在原地等待，没什么想法没什么感受。

可是直到时间拉长了，我才发现原来等待不是简单地一回事。

等待很难耐，等待很难受。

等待让我精神崩溃，因为不知道等待的他几时回头，所以一直等待，无眠的等待，无止休的等待……

等待中带着的是一丝丝的期待，可是有了期待就有期望、有了期望就有了希望、有了希望就有了失望、有了失望就有了绝望。

它们是连接在一起的，一旦有了期望你就会有了失望再来绝望，期望它可以将你带入天堂有了希望，但它也可以在那一瞬间将你打入地狱让你永远绝望……

或许有时会假装无所谓的说说‘会的、会好的’，那只是自欺欺人的一种说法。

有些习惯是永远改不来的，伤口永远不会好，好了也会留下一个疤、只要揭露就会疼痛的伤疤。

习惯了等待，因为等待久了，即使绝望了，却还是抱着一丝希望，所以永远的等待了，永无止境的等待下去，毫无理由的就因为习惯了……

可是等待得到的是些什么呢？

我不清楚，但是我知道等待是孤独的、是孤单的、是寂寞的。

等待是一个人站在原地等待，身旁没有人相伴，却想着那个不回头的人会回心转意，是一个带着凄凉感觉的希望。

是在期待着什么呢？其实自己心里已经清楚明了的有了答案不是吗？但是为何还在等待？

这种人说他傻吧？可是他又不完全的傻，他知道等待付出的代价是什么、有多大、他知道回馈他的是什么，也设下了最糟糕的回馈。

付出的代价是牺牲了所有的时间、精神、力气等等的，回馈的却是什么都没有的一个黑暗的空间。

空间里有着寂寞有着孤单，还有的就是他一个人。

但是这样的他却还不放弃，即使已经劝自己放弃，心里充满绝望。

但是无可奈何地，这已经是一种习惯，一种可怕的习惯。

习惯是很可怕的一种东西，一旦习惯他可能成为永久。

永久的寂寞、永久的孤单、永久的落寞、永久的绝望……